Missing my Sanity!

Of all the things that I have lost in life, I miss my sanity the most. I have always been a happy go lucky typo never worrying about anything , just following what the heart says, seldom applying wisdom to judge or choose . This way I realise that I have put myself in trouble time and time again... Every time I am in such a pit , it seems impossible to get out of it... But God's been kind enough to give me opportunities in life ... I grab them with eager hands, for some time follow the correct path and then all of a sudden something has to happen to blow my senses away . In that momentary lapse of reason and wisdom , I make the blunders yet again! Some times even realising the fact doesn't help. I feel like being possessed , not able to work the way I want to , just giving in to weaknesses. Its a shameful fact to realise that... Its over... blunders made... what now?? Am I doomed?? I don't know.. I just don't know ....